4th Father's Day

It has been over 4 years.

It is the 4th Father's Day.
Without him.

I looked at the Facebook news feed.
And this feeling was growing in me.
I was jealous of all of the people, who still have their father.

I have a father too. Who left me, mom and my brother.
I was two.
He only called when he needed money.
He remembered my birthday, twice.
That was after I turned 20 and did not need him anymore.
Last time I was on the phone with him, he was asking about borrowing me money.
I am mad at him for never being there when I needed him.
And now, when he's in need(for money), he tries his best to be a father.
How can I forgive this man?

I was 9 when my mom re-married.
This guy became my dad and my best friend.
In 7 years, I had to wait to feel complete.
Like other families.

10 years. That was the time I got to spend with him.
That went too fast.
Even 4 years without him feels even longer.

Tell me how I will manage another year with this.
Without my dad.

I miss you...

-Your daughter